Monday, April 20, 2009

See food

(I realize there are these things called bibs. We have about 50 of them...all the way upstairs in the top drawer of Monkey's dresser. Sometimes the effort to go and get them is just not worth it when you weigh carrying a fussy, hungry child up a flight of stairs all the way to her room to get a bib as opposed to just letting her dirty her pajamas because she is about to take them off anyway. Whew, I'm glad I explained that. Am I forgiven?)
Have I ever told you how thankful I am? Have I ever told you that I thank God everyday for the miracles in my life? Have I ever told you that I would do anything for my children and that I push them everyday to learn and to be kind, loving people?

Have I ever told you that although I have been told that my daughter would never do any of the things that she is doing, that I still push her every single day to learn and develop each skill that she never should have learned to do?

Have I?
There are many days that I feel like the meanest Mom in the world. I don't let my kids get away with a whole lot. With Julien, I try to take into account that he is a boy and boys are rambunctious, full of energy and do things in life that girls will never understand.

I try to understand that.

With Addie, I push her and I push her hard. I don't feel sorry for her and I don't let my emotions get in the way of her progress.

I have had a pretty big goal for Addie over the last few months. I have let her learning to walk take second place to her learning to use utensils.

Primarily because I know how people judge. People are much more accepting of a child who cannot walk, as opposed to a child that makes a tremendous mess while eating and uses their hands to eat when not appropriate.
I know that.

Using utensils has not come easy for Addie. Her little hands just couldn't get the hang of it.

Yet, I pushed her.

I reminded her constantly and I guided her little hand from her plate to her mouth, time after time after time...until...she got it.

She got it!

She is still a pretty messy little eater, but then again, I realize how many times I drop a bite of food on my lap or spill water down my chin. I get it. I know.
It is hard to keep the tears back. I'm not a crier and never have been, but accomplishments like this deserve tremendous praise!
Not everyone will understand.
I understand.
I get it.

My daughter is a miracle and a blessing from God!


Jennifer said...

oh boy, I don't know about you but this made me cry. Tears of joy my friend, tears of overwhelming joy. You are a wonderful mother and I am blessed to call you my friend.

Nicole said...

Way to go Addie!!! What a Blessing!!!

Kim said...

She is a miracle and blessing from God, I too have tears in my eyes. She is doing so great! I know you are so proud of her. You are an amazing mom. What you do for Addie, pushing her, just look how far she has come, by the Grace of God and an amazing loving mother, she is beating the odds...

Coach Brian said...

I never believed what the doctors told you when she was born. Proud to be your cousins. BTW this is not Coach Brian. It is just plain old Apryl.

Katie said...

Between this and the potty post, I nearly had to grab the tissues! Way to go BIG GIRL!!!

Paul Vincent says, "Yea Addie!"

Ashley said...

Way to go Addie, I love hearing about all your accomplishments they just make my day!!!

Polly & Steve said...

I have gotten back to reading again and I love this one. Addie has always been my Angel, I made it to the store Sunday and I was hoping Addie would be there but I wasn't lucky. I love the part where you push her....I had a cousin Inez and she had polio when she was little and my Aunt never treated her any differently then if she hadn't had it. She had a large hump on her back and her left arm was very little. She grew up and went to college and worked for State Farm in Alabama until she retired. Everyone loved her in Crossville and She had her own place to live until she had to move back in and take care of her Mother. Our Family always said that the only way she could do things was that her Mother didn't make a difference in tasks, she learned ways around her disability. Angel, yes she was.
Give Addie my love and tell her I miss her and all the pictures are wonderful, she is growing so much.