The nurse placed Addie next to me and walked away.
I was unable to reach out to hold Addie.
The only thing that I could do was move my hand so that I could rub her head.
I wanted so badly to take her in my arms, kiss her and tell her that everything was all right.
I wanted her to know that it didn't matter what had happened in the moments preceding the first time that I touched her.
It didn't matter what others might have said, it didn't matter what was done and it didn't matter that the nurse didn't congratulate me, she only let me know that this angel that was next to me exhibited "a problem".
I couldn't take Addie in my arms, but I reached over to her and I touched her head.