Not In Kansas Anymore

While at the hospital yesterday, my family (not my fabulous aunt because she has the same insane passion that I do) had a grand time making fun of my "Dorothy slippers" - my newest favorite shoes that are just beyond awesome.
They are, oh so comfortable, and extremely quiet.

I wish I had them on today.

Today has been exhausting. Addie made yet another trip to our ENT. She is having a really rough time keeping those awful sinus infections at bay. I'm so tired that I don't even feel like talking about the possibilities that were discussed right now, I just hope that she gets some relief soon.

My Mom has had a really bad day - as can be expected - which makes for a really bad day for my family.

Mom is still in ICU. Her day has consisted of a blood transfusion, unstable blood pressure, unmanageable pain, nausea, vomiting and a lot of confusion (from the astronomical amount of meds).

It was so hard today when I wasn't at the hospital, my sister called to tell me that Mom was asking for me - which made things that much worse.

Chris and I got there as soon as we could, especially considering we are bound by ICU visiting hours. As soon as we were allowed, we made our way into the unit. I had no more than passed the nurses station on the way to Mom's room at the end of the hall, when I heard my Mother say, "Jennifer?".

It was my darn shoes that gave it away!

I didn't have on my quiet shoes today, I had on my heels (no time to change). All I could do was shake my head. Leave it up to me to wear heels in the deafening silence of a Cardiac Intensive Care Unit.

At that moment, Mom was completely coherent. Other times throughout our visit, she was not. She still has a million tubes everywhere, including the drain tube and central line. I understand how painful that is and imagine that she will feel better once that is out.

We have no idea how she will progress from here, but at least we are seeing progress...and I'm good with that.

It's going to be a long road, but she's a fighter and this will all be behind us soon.

I have my Dorothy shoes ready for me to slip on in a few hours...this time she will have no warning that I'm on my way.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH for your emails, concern and prayers. I named off a whole list to her today of people that have asked me to tell her that they are thinking about her and praying for her...I think she heard about every third name...she nodded that she heard me...and I know how much she appreciates you all!