When my family is facing such loss in death, it almost seems wrong to celebrate life.
My sweet Baby Girl's Birthday is this week and it is a time that we struggle anyway.
We have always celebrated her birthday in a way that we saw fit.
It is such an incredibly emotional day for us that in the past, we have always chosen to remain by ourselves.
Part of me feels that we shouldn't celebrate her day as we are waiting to lay to rest the newest additions to our family.
We always struggled with the day Addie was born and the day we brought her home because we feel that we didn't do enough to celebrate her life in a time of confusion.
How could I not celebrate her 3rd Birthday?
That would be letting her down all over again.
I had to talk myself into finding the balance that we so desperately need this week.
We are proceeding with our plans in celebration of the life that has touched so many.
We are honoring our sweet baby by celebrating her day and pray that our time of honor to our daughter in no way dishonors my sister or my nephews.
We need this day for our daughter and for our family.
Many of you have written your stories of blessings and wishes for this past year and the year to come.
I am as close to broken as I have ever been and my post of thanks and wishes has yet to come into my heart.
My sister has been moved from ICU, for which all thanks go to you - those of you who have been on bended knee for our family.
I have 397 pictures from Christmas that I have yet to have the heart to sort through and I am desperately trying to balance work, appointments and this tragedy and still take a moment to cherish the last full day before Addie's Birthday.
Please continue your prayers with me.
